This I Know
October 28, 2012
By: Magnolia
I don’t want to be drunk, I want to feel everything
I want to be bold and peel back my fears
I want to be skinned and face my flesh
I want to walk around with my insides out
I want to sink in the pain of being rejected so that I may learn to swim
I want to fall and feel the bruises upon my knee so that I may be cautious of where I step
I want to bite my tongue and swallow the taste of salt and metal so that I choose my words with delicacy
I want to be without so I know what it is to be with everything
I want to be emptied out so that you can fill me up
I want my thoughts to run away from me so that I may hear silence
I want to not pick so that I may let you choose
I want to be happy for this loss so that I may be at peace with your gain
I want to swallow sand so that water tastes like wine
I want my eyes sewn shut so I learn to see with my heart
I want to be born in darkness so that I may see the light
I want to be pricked with a needle so I can feel the softness of a rose pedal
I want to exist for the sun against my lids and the water between my toes
And most of all, I want to not want at all so that I may simply be
And in this way I will see the divine universe with stillness and love unfold inside of me